If there is one thing I'm amazing at is putting things off
I looked up my exam marks for intro to psych. I did not bad, I did better than last time. I was however expecting this, since the lectures more so was based on logic and common sense, required less memorization of intricate parts of the brain.I'm not terribly disappointed considering yet again I flourished at being almost deemed as a Queen of procrastination. I studied for all of maybe half an hour.
I had 16 pages of notes to cover..yes 16, I sat in bed at about midnight reading these notes over one full time, and than reading them again maybe half way before I fell asleep.
I've been like this all through school, I would study the day before the exam for about half an hour and that was pretty much my limit. I would perhaps need some tranquilizers or Ritalin to get myself more focused. Even if I'm interested in the subject, studying always comes off as too much of a chore, therefore I can't place enjoyment in it.
I can't go "OH YES I GET TO STUDY THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN SEX, I CAN'T WAIT TO STUDY LET ME PROCEED TO RUB THESE NOTES ALL OVER MY BODY."
I wish I got such an excited response, maybe than I would actually receive 100% in all my classes.
Sometimes I still feel torn, I would like to become a psychologist, I've been saying this for the longest time, I have many other passions in life, and little things I find interest in that I can pick up much quickly, though as soon as theory and actual process is put into them to the point they feel like a job, my interest slowly dims. I don't quite exactly know yet where I would like life to take me.
Take for example, this weekend I'm making a few goody bags for my friends Halloween themed, yes Halloween is over but Sunday is the only time we could get together. I'm making all the treats myself, and looked for recipes online, and I just find myself flooded with ideas, I get all creative on what I will do, and I add to what is just written in the recipe. Things like that I could be creative, though I could never be a baker because this is one of my passions that I love to do without the added pressure of it having to be "professional."
I honestly love it, I feel such a sense of achievement that I smile throughout my whole body, and handing it to them and seeing their faces, seeing them munch on my few hours of hard work I just glow. There is no other better way to describe it, it's as though I found the cure for cancer.
posted by Porcelain Injections @ 3:21 PM
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